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okay I can honestly say I was pretty horrified when hubby asked me if I wanted to go to Lunch and I said okay! I went and did great! I ate a julienne salad minus the cheese , egg and tomato! the salad dressing I chose was fat free! Then I had a cup of chicken shells soup(no creamy soups for me!) , so all in all I did pretty good and I am so proud of myself! So now comes my hard part of the day , you’ve heard of when the night falls so does the evils well I have my worst part at night! I have bought a few items to help me with this time but, it is going to be difficult and will have to be on my A game to get through it! So wish me luck! Hugs to all my buddies! Kimmi

So some of you know me and some of you don’t,  lots of new faces around here! So in about a week I will have been on here for about a year! In that year I have managed to go through a ton of changes some good some really bad! I changed my tracker to show my recent weight gain which to me is really bad! So I wanted everyone on here to see it! That way everyone knows my struggle and I don’t have to feel guilty anymore ! I am taking little steps to get myself better as of today! I started off by eating a good healthy breakfast which I usually choose something really bad! I am going to take a walk sometime today and we are cleaning out the garage today to try to set up a little mini gym so my hubby and I can get a workout in without leaving the house and spending money we don’t have! we are just now starting to come out of the dark times we have been experiencing for what seems forever! this is really hard for me because of depression which gets so bad I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning ! I have no shame in telling people that because we are all human and we all have our flaws! Mine comes in the form of mood disorder! I really am going to take the effort to move forward now because if I don’t the depression only gets worse and then where am I? Hating the person I’ve become is where I’ll be and somewhat of where I am now! Just back one year ago even I was happy and doing what I knew had to be done  and look at me now! So that is why I am coming clean and telling you all and hopefully I will get the much needed support I need ! I just need to know I am not on my own! Thank you all in advance for reading this blog and taking a moment to look into my world! Have a wonderful day! Kimmi   P.S. Kama, you are in my prayers my dear friend!

Bette Jo wrote a very heartfelt blog yesterday which got me to thinking ! I am trying to get myself back in the game but, haven’t done so well up to this point ! I will be pulling out those Denise Austins and Richard Simmons tapes and get moving this very day! I have been very busy these past couple of weeks looking for another job, and trying to help hubby find one too! I have let everything go to the wayside but, I am taking a stand Today , and saying no more! I want more out of life than chaos ! I am going to find a way to do some of my dreams! First thing is to get myself healthy again and on the right track then I would like to look into getting a fitness trainers license so i can help others too! Someday I will but I have to help myself first!  I hope all of you read Bette Jo’s blog and feel the way I did! Thank you Bette Jo for writing such a lovely blog ! Hugs everyone! Kimmi