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I guess it must be that people really think that I am stupid or something today! After the incident with the please help me get this money , I thought okay , I have put it out there and I should be able to get on with the day ! It’s one thing to be lied to by a stranger but, when a friend lies to you it’s never a good thing ! Now don’t think it’s any of you because it’s not , it’s a friend who sees me in my everyday ordinary life which I really thought there was no need for her to lie to me ! Well when I talked to her this morning before rollerskating she said to me that she didn’t want me to follow behind her just meet her at the rink because her hubby wanted to go with and she didn’t want me to have to wait though all that ! Well I get to the rink and wait a ten to fifteen minutes for her to show and she comes pulling up in another Mom’s car and when she knew she was caught she said oh Hubby changed his mind and then the other mother told her she would take her ! I really wouldn’t be as upset as if she had been up front with me and said look I am going with the other mother because she asked me if I would like to carpool with her ! I wouldn’t feel so betrayed ! I don’t want to sound whiny or anything , I was just asking for a little respect and a little truth telling ! I am not butter, I would not melt if she didn’t go in front of me in a darn car ! Am I asking too much for someone to tell me the frickin’ truth ? Okay I feel better venting that out ! Hugs, Kimmi

Well here I am going through my messages on here and someone sends me one of those stupid letters on here that says ” please , you are the only person that can collect this money please help me by trying to collect the money from the account or bank fromGod only knows where!” Has anybody else gotten this morning ?  I can’t be the only one ! I hate those ! On a good note I am four pounds lighter this week ! Yeah ! I had a little bump in the road yesterday by going up about half a pond which put me in the next poundage catagory which made me extremely mad at myself since there’s only me to blame ! I however corrected the issue and am on the right track again ! Hope everyone is doing well this morning ! Still in the processes with my business and working on it so if I miss anybody I do apologize ! I am trying to come on here as much as possible because you guys are my lifeline ! Love you guys , and have a Happy Sunday and make it a great week ! Hugs, Kimmi

Hey buddies I have to get this out there so I can get on with my day ! Wow, I am just wondering how many of you wives and Mom’s or anyone with a significant other feel the same way as I do ? Yes, I know I signed up for this package when I got married and had kids but , someone should have put a warning label on them ! I swear on a daily basis it is a never ending “Mom , where is my ?” or “Hon, have you seen my ?” or the best one yet “What did you do with my ?”.  ARRRGGGHHH ! It is frustrating when no one can do it but you ! Which I know as well as they do that they can do it themselves ! Who else here has the same issues and what in the world do you do about them (that’s within legal limits LOL) ? Sometimes I wish I had Alice from the Brady Bunch living at my house but , she doesn’t want the job either LOL !  Oh, I feel better just putting this out here ! I am feeling a little more relaxed from all the stress that the kids,hubby , and Dogs put on me ! AHHHHH! What’s that sound oh, it’s quiet there is no sounds  ! Yeah ! Oh, would everyone pray for my hubby to get some clients because he’s saying now that if he doesn’t get any clients by the end of the week he is gonna quit ! So , please beg of God to bring him clients ! Well I hope everyone has a lovely day ! Hugs, Kimmi

I wrote today with a lighter heart ! I just asked god to lead me down the right roads and help me keep on my eating plan ! I have stayed on task today and ate right and really did a good job with the exercise ! I weighed this morning and didn’t like what Mr. Scale said so I decided to get my keister in gear ! I got plenty of exercise today ! I went to Walmart and walked around then came home and Kickboxed for about 10 minutes , then 25 minutes of step benching ! Well then I ate a light dinner and then took my four dogs on a walk each on my street a couple times each which gave me another 35 minutes to add to the pot ! So all in all I have done really well recovering from my cheat day yesterday and I intend to continue !I know it will be a challenge but, with my buddies and God I will be able to do it ! Thank you to all my buddies , I love each and every one of you ! I hope you all have a great week and make it your best ever ! Hugs, Kimmi

Well at the beginning of the week I thought I was going to lose one of my buddies here,she thankfully she stayed but, I lost my will to keep any kind of diet until Tuesday night I knew I had to change it around because I had a weigh in today and I knew I didn’t want to weigh in 6 pounds heavier than last week ! Well I worked like crazy from Wednesday until today and lost four of the flippin’ six that I had gained but that meant once again I had a gain! I cried a very long time this morning and I wound up journaling so I could feel better ! I just decided to put everything in there that was bothering me and addressed it to God ! I figured he could make sense of all that pain and he had to sort through it to see what he could do about it ! Maybe some of you think it sounds silly but it really worked and made me feel better ! I told him about some of the everyday things like please help my husband get some clients so he can make some money ! I figured he’d know what to do about that one ! Then I asked him to help me not be afraid with my new business I just started yesterday ! I just want to find my courage somewhere down in the middle of all my pain and let his light shine through it ! I don’t want you to think this is a sad sad blog because I actually found a little relief in writing to God ! Knowing that he can turn everything around and I just have to trust him ! So anybody that is hurting and thinks that you don’t want to blog then just write to God maybe it will help ! I know it did for me ! Hope every one has a lovely weekeend and keep strong ! Hugs, Kimmi

Okay yesterday my blog over my buddy leaving here was heart wretching and really heartfelt ! I am taking all of your advice and realizing that there is no way I can help everyone  and have other buddies here that need me too ! I am thankful that you all are here and that you came to my assistance! I just wanted so bad to help her ! I am happy to have all of you here ! I do love each and everyone of you ! I have however started one of my bad habits to mask my feelings ! I am an emotional eater and have to learn to deal with stress better by exercisng or anything else besides eating ! One positive thing about it is that I realize that I am doing it ! Now the question to myself is that you have packed on a few more pounds nopw what are you going to do about it?  I plan on getting back on track within the end of the week if I can muster it ! I know right now some of you are screaming “Kimmi, wake up and smell the coffee”, I know you are but I just have to try to heal myself to even pick up the pieces to move on ! I want to but, I am feeling helpless right now very vulnerable ! I will do better ! I will get back up out of the dirt because I sure don’t like to eat mud pies ! So now you know exactly where I am , I think I can move forward ! Thank you everyone for your love and support ! Hugs, Kimmi

A buddy of mine has decided to leave buddyslim to sort out some issues she is having and I can do is cry because I tried so hard to help and failed at it ! Forgive me for swearing  but What the Hell good am I if I can’t even help someone that close ! This ripping my heart out ! I can’t even imagine coming on here and not seeing her everyday and reading her blogs ! I am crying as I write this in hopes she will come on one more time and maybe read this ! I really don’t know what to say ! Besides Kama( which I hope to god she never leaves or that will be even worse) this person made me feel very special and I hope that I made her feel special but, I guess that I didn’t do enough to keep her here! I am falling apart and feel like one of my arms have been rippd off and have to learn how to cope without it ! I just want my buddy back ! I want each and every one of you buddies to know how special you are and it would crush me if you left becuse being here for each other is what it’s all about ! So, please remember to tell all your buddies how much they mean to you cuz you never know when you won’t be able to speak to them anymore ! So here it is I love each and every buddy of mine and will do my best to show you ! Well my eyes are so filled with tears I can barely see the keypad anymore so I guess I should stop writng ! Hugs to you all ! Thanks in advance for reading my blog ! Hugs, Kimmi

I don’t know maybe it’s just the rain and all around crappy kind of day that is making me cry ! I woke up today feeling okay but now I just want to cry my eyes out ! Knowing that the scale has not been very nice to me this week and knowing that I went wrong somewhere isn’t helping ! It is something that is really bothering the living crap out of me ! I hate feeling like this ! Maybe I’m just over tired  and feel like this situation is way beyond me ! I am going to work out sometime today it will probably be later because I am on some new meds that are just really making me tired ! Maybe I will try my new step bench and it’s DVD !  Need some major encouragement right now please ! My heart is pouring just like it is outside ! I just really need the help of all my buddies ! Hugs, Kimmi

Hello everybody ! Is there any other Scrapbookers out there ? I am going to my once a month scrapbook club even though it’s just two of us right now LOL ! We used to have 7-10 people but it has fizzled out since some have moved others just got busy with life ! Oh well! We scrap and eat some junk food but that is okay cuz I try to only eat junk once a week ! It is a fun time cuz it makes you focus an good times and not really the bad ! I am still not really that great at it but am getting better as time wears on ! I am feeling pretty good today despite the damn four pound gain this week ! It means that I will have to try harder next week !  I love giving myself that challenge sometimes cuz, it keeps me in check ! I hope everyone out there has a wonderful weekend and keep trying everyone ! I have had some downer blogs lately but hopefully this one makes up for it ! Oh , I almost forgot to tell you Steve(hubby) passed his liscensing exam ! YIPEE! Now he has to go out and start getting accounts ! So pray that those accounts start rolling in too ! Hugs to all of you ! Kimmi

Yes, you heard me right buddies ! Well it’s not exactly what you think ! I have a love/Hate realtionship with several things right now ! My first love is that God Forsaken SCALE ! I love to get on it everyday and hate what I see! I can’t seem to stop doing it because I feel like if I don’t get on that scale somehow I will magically gain twelve pounds in the next seven days ! That scale is once again kicking my butt ! It is laughing saying “I will not budge an Inch, just to make you nuts !” I swear if it could talk that’s what it would say ! The next thing is myself ! I love to hate myself ! I am trying to turn thins behavior around but with that scale it just makes the hate all the stronger ! The next thing is obvious ! Food , you guessed it ! I love to eat some bad things like pizza and choclate but those things only make me want to hate myself again you see ! So you see this love/hate is getting me in a whole lot of trouble and I wish I could change this ! Does anybody else have this issue too ? What do you guys do when you feel like this ? hugs, kimmi