Must get out somethings in a blog !
I have been staying off of BS because I am really ashamed that I am gaining weight again ! I am so frustrated with myself it isn’t funny ! I have been placed on Depression medications and I am not afraid to say that ! The depression stems from Life just kicking the crap out of me and i can’t see my way up ! I won’t go into massive detail but, I am frustrated by the fact that I just have lost all motivation and sometimes don’t care what happens to me ! I know everyone gets this way but, what I don’t know is how to climb out ! It seems to me the hole keeps getting bigger and bigger and digging out feels impossible ! I don’t feel sorry for myself just really angry that I am doing this again and worse than ever this time ! So, what I am asking is that you that pray please ask God to have Mercy on me and help me get my life back on track ! I thank you in advance for reading this and know it came from my heart with No Bull crap attatched ! Kimmi
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i know what you mean especially when you said you dont care what happens to you sometimes….i totally get that way a lot…almost every other day i say…who cares and i eat whatever i want…i wish i knew what made me do it…i mean i dont think i have gone a whole week doing really good yet since i started about 3 months ago…however i let the good days outnumber the bad…thats the only way i have been able to continue losing weight so far…i know soon that it wont be good enough and when that happens i only hope i will have enough motivation to keep pushing through and losing weight and hopefully it will keep happening that way…as long as you keep blogging about it its going to help you get this stuff off your chest and you are going to feel a whole heck of a lot better and even if thats all you get out of blogging about it thats better than nothing….but just keep trying to climb out of that hole youre in…thats all you can do!
I am throwing you a rope and you are going to climb out of that hole right now! You just keep holding on, and when you feel like you can’t get out, just ask for help. I can always lend an ear, and I want you to do this for me. Remember, if we feel sad and fall off our happy motivation wagon, sometimes we throw in the towel for a day, a week, or a month. But why??? If you are driving and one tire blows out, do you call for help, or slash the other three tires??? Do not slash your tires because you are sad. You called for help, and we are here for you. Dont lose hope. I am going to ask Jesus to keep his hands over you and give you peace. It will all work out. Just keep goin! Take a walk today. It will make you feel better!
lol at the story above–read it today and thought what sense it made (about the tires).
Kimmi girl,
come on. You may not control all aspects of your life. We both know where we are having problems finanically and stuff. It over shadows everything. However, you can do something about your weight. I wrote a rant to meself because sitting on my ass and moping gets nothing done and I pile on the pounds. So, I printed my rant out and am carrying it with me. Do you need a rant girl? I also feel ashamed when I think how I worked it last time–I’m talking walking every day, working out and making it count. I was running hot and not letting anything stand in my way cause I got a scare. I didnt want to stay in that bad place at 306 lbs. So, stop and remind yourself why you need to do this. Print it out. Cuss and fuss at yourself-whatever it takes to get back in the game.
You know if you need to talk i’m here.
(smiles and evil grin–farming on the computer is not a workout)lol.
Hi Goddess of one pound down
Kimmi, Debbie is right. Draw strength from the time when you were successful in losing weight. It’s all there, still in you, the power, the commitment, and the joy of being active and healthy. It is waiting for you to reach deep down and use it again.
Do you have a plan Kimmi? Do you know what you need to eat and how you would like to exercise? Do you have support in real life? A workout buddy?
The hole you are talking about is as deep as you let it be. Start moving out and upward… fake it until you make it.
I meant keep smiling and fake it until you make it.
Kimmi, my long lost buddy ! I am sorry u r struggling, sweetheart. I have missed ur smiling face on here. Depression is rough, mama. I work with people with chronic, major depression, so I get it. And have experienced depression myself. Find things each day to smile and laugh about and take some serious babysteps back into this. You will feel better and it will begin to come more naturally to you again. Do NOT put too much pressure on urself—Thinking of you
I went thru this horrible depression too. It started about 4 weeks ago. It was horrible! I started not caring about myself, my dieting, my exercise. I just kept fighting the urge not to exercise. I kept forcing myself to go out and walk and I had numerous excuses why I shouldn’t be walking. I wasn’t able to even cook dinner for the family some days. I know I need to be on some antidepressants too.
It has gotten better and I am walking everyday again because I want to and I am trying with my diet again. I was sad to find out that I lost about 7 pounds going thru that funk. Depression is hard to go thru and if you are like me, the way I’ve always dealt with it is with food and isolation. So, the challenge is to do the opposite when you get depressed. Go out and walk, do not stay inside. Just hang tight, keep on your meds, and you will be feeling better. Don’t feel guilty either. Depression is an illness and you can’t help that.
OOOOOpppps, I meant to say that i GAINED 7 pounds! I wish I had lost 7 pounds!!!
Be well–and I wonder…? Is there any evidence that exercise can help with depression at all? In combination with whatever other treatment you’re getting, of course. It might be worth looking into, and if so, might give you some hope and motivation.
You know we all fall off and gain. It took me 2 months to loose the 5 lbs I gained in May. You got to keep fighting and going….PROMISE???