gettinfit2

Let me just say that the title isn’t just some catchy phrase it is the truth ! I hate that I am not able to make my mind set get into helping me get healthy ! I hate that I feel so angry lately that I am so unhappy with everything ! I know for sure there are somethings going on in my life that are putting me in this state of mind but , I can’t seem overcome them and sugarcoat any of it ! I hate my body because I feel it looks so bad and I am at my heaviest right now than I have been in for two years ! Don’t get me wrong I do want to change this but feel like the blocks are all stacked against me and can’t climb over and out ! Some of you may take this as a poor me pity party and you are certainly entitled to your opinion but, I am giving you the whole fat ugly truth ! All this anger is causing me to over eat , not care what I look like , and just plain out just wanting to give up because life right now is beating the crap out of me and I don’t know how to kick back ! I have asked for prayers for my family and it seems as God didn’t listen to not one of our prayers ! For that I am angry ! I want my husband to have a job again and things to go back to normal ! I don’t how to deal with this burden day in and day out ! I don’t know how to deal with the bullies that being mean to my kids  and the bully coaches to go on top of that (The Cheer Coaches are the worst !). That makes me really angry that I feel helpless to stop all the nonsense without coming out sounding like a crazy person ! I welcome all encouraging thoughts that can help me get out of this ! I do Love each and every person on here that has helped me and has more than once pulled me out of the dark and to that I am truly Thankful ! So, if you made it this far through Thnx for listening  ! Hope you all have a good night ! Kimmi