I Hate me !
Let me just say that the title isn’t just some catchy phrase it is the truth ! I hate that I am not able to make my mind set get into helping me get healthy ! I hate that I feel so angry lately that I am so unhappy with everything ! I know for sure there are somethings going on in my life that are putting me in this state of mind but , I can’t seem overcome them and sugarcoat any of it ! I hate my body because I feel it looks so bad and I am at my heaviest right now than I have been in for two years ! Don’t get me wrong I do want to change this but feel like the blocks are all stacked against me and can’t climb over and out ! Some of you may take this as a poor me pity party and you are certainly entitled to your opinion but, I am giving you the whole fat ugly truth ! All this anger is causing me to over eat , not care what I look like , and just plain out just wanting to give up because life right now is beating the crap out of me and I don’t know how to kick back ! I have asked for prayers for my family and it seems as God didn’t listen to not one of our prayers ! For that I am angry ! I want my husband to have a job again and things to go back to normal ! I don’t how to deal with this burden day in and day out ! I don’t know how to deal with the bullies that being mean to my kids and the bully coaches to go on top of that (The Cheer Coaches are the worst !). That makes me really angry that I feel helpless to stop all the nonsense without coming out sounding like a crazy person ! I welcome all encouraging thoughts that can help me get out of this ! I do Love each and every person on here that has helped me and has more than once pulled me out of the dark and to that I am truly Thankful ! So, if you made it this far through Thnx for listening ! Hope you all have a good night ! Kimmi
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Oh girl, stress and anger is really getting to you. You know, this has been like the year from hell for me. So many things that have hit me, and I got so mad–It wasnt even under my control so I could change it. Hubby is drawing unemployment, and we have lost just about everything but our house. We dont have tv service or cell phones and stuff like that–we have cut it down to the line. Add in the fact my son is facing 3 felony counts and goes to court tomarrow–facing 6 yr to 20 (or 25) years for each count. My life is falling apart faster then I can pick it up!! The reason for me telling you this–isnt to make you feel sad for me—its because i’ve come to understand something. Yeah, we are facing some of the hardest times of our lives–yet, do I want my kids to see me fall apart? Do I want my hubby to constantly be worried about me–he’s been babying me for a while now. What would children think–moms falling apart and its our fault? We have to keep it together. No one and no circumstances should make us fall apart–we are not just depending on ourselves but our families are depending on us too. So, I have started using my workouts as a way to make my body tired…I’ve got a different attitude too.
We have been friends a long time. I understand, believe me. Hope this doesnt hurt you by telling you to dig deep in your heart and soul. Find the strength to take care of yourself. Deal with problems one at a time,as they come up. Use kick boxing or punching bag (hell make ya one) as a way to relieve some of that anger.
Most of all, please find some love in your heart for yourself. Your a beautiful friend, your a mom and a wife–that person is worth the world.
you are surly in a vicious cycle and you got to find enough love or care for yourself to change yourself or it will not happen. I am not going to sugar coat it cause that will not help you. You got to get started right now like brushing your teeth get up and go for a walk every day or do something else you enjoy. that will make your motivation go up some and you will feel better. it is not easy to do it when you are down in the dumps but you got to do it. you won’t go without a shower or brushing your teeth so you need to look at it like that with working out. Has to be done.
as far as the bullys well why don;t you call them up (the teachers and coaches) i would not let that happen ever if my kid gets bullied. take those in your hand and call someone about it. Your kids will know you are sticking up for them and will love it.
Sometimes we have to do things we think we cannot do. but we can!!!!!!!!! we just got to buck up.
yes I can say I am sorry and things will get better but YOU got to make them better..
I am sorry you are feeling so down it happens but without at least saying Kimmie I am an okay person and I am going to do this.. it will not happen….
Oh hun…I know what you’re talking about!! I was like that for so long! I hated my body and hated the way I looked, yet I didn’t feel I could do anything about it! So I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and tried to pretend that I wasn’t killing myself pretty much! But one day I finally hit rock bottom and was like “I’m done!!” So I just put my nose to the grindstone and I’m doing it! However, I don’t have a husband and kids to worry about also. It’s just me! I don’t know what to say to make any of it better, but I would always be there if you needed anything…to vent, to laugh, to jump with joy over a loss..whatever!!! Hope you feel better soon and things start to look up! You are in my prayers!!!
Wow…this reminds me of what Oprah has said about being overweight….she says you have to figure out “what is eating you?” For you it sounds like anger and having no control. Don’t let this happen to you Kimmie. I am not sure what is going on as far as your husband…but I am sure that is huge if he is unemployed right now. As far as your kids are concerned…you MUST stand up for what is right. I wouldn’t stand still for a minute if my kids were being bullied..or mistreated in any way. If you have to take it to the top at their school, then so be it. You will feel good for standing up…and feel like you are taking back some of the control. By the way..there are laws about schools allowing kids to be bullied. Wow, this gets me going…I cant stand for kids to be treated this way!!!! No one will think you are crazy..and who cares anyway. If they are going to allow your kids to be mistreated then they better look out. Make a list, and seriously start crossing things off as you take care of business. You can do this! I know you can.
Keep us updated…will be looking forward to hearing how you took the bull by the horns!!!!
Take care!!
First off, good to see you back. We all feel like this at some point. There is no point in dwelling in the past. You can start tomorrow!
You know how to do it right? I hope the situation gets better for you and your husband. I understand how hard it is to live with one income. It is hard! Living from paycheck to paycheck sucks!
I wish you the best. I’m glad to see you back and ready to do it!